I want to be!

I just want to be! All these thoughts/ideas of believing in your self, is becoming somewhat of a reality for me. They were just words flowing around in the sky for me before.

I have honestly been living a dead life. Most people would find it hard to hear me say this, even my family. But I just was not living in the past 4 years. Something had occured, and I hope gradually it will deplete.

I was literally blinded by many things, and I think they wouldn't have gone away no matter how hard I tried. It's about timing, it really is. I think God plans this for us, so you cannot do much here. But I am thankful, He has let me know at an earlier stage in life.

I've been thinking about "how I can make a difference" for the last 2 days. It might sound cheesy, but I have been actually thinking about it. I kept thinking about all the great names, and how they have made such an impact. From being a basketball player to creating new policies affecting a nation, they have become of some importance. When God brings us on this earth, he has a purpose for all of us. Coincidently, today on the news - there was a new study showing that people who have a purpose in life, are less likely to suffer from "mental" awkwardness (I'm not that great with words).

I just want to be my best from now on. I want this year to be one, where I go closer to where I want to be, and a year for me to shine somewhat. I know a majority of my weaknesses,and I need to start working on them, gradually, but surely I want to do everything I can. :D